My Dark Days
I became very intimate with Death during this time period.
I will be adding additional "thoughts" to this page as I read through my notebooks. But many of the pages I'm reading are just full of incoherent ramblings from a very sad Dad/Papa.
He took my life away, in seconds things change.
Saying goodnight was forever, living this life is in vain.
My death would be easier, more normal in a way.
Than burying my little girl & her little boy.
Like I did the other day.
Mike Donovan
Searching for the words. Looking for a way. To explain how I feel. Since you both went away.
My stomach tightens, I'm sick inside. Living in this prison, I've created in my mind.
More pain than I can bear, from death's permanent goodbye,
Do they understand why I always cry.
To embrace the pain I feel inside. To get on with living or to give up and die.
Mike Donovan
I'm lost inside a scary place unable to escape.
Something out there's hunting me, my heart begins to race.
Images that won't erase like a negative in time.
Self fulfilling prophecy, now it's time to die.
Mike Donovan
Victim of life, tragedy delivered.
Stand up and fight, blood in the river.
Escape from this madness, a doorway in time.
The creature that you fear, lives inside my mind.
Mike Donovan
Do you really want to die?
Do you want to make your son cry?
To be left here all alone
With no family and no home
I know that Dyings the easy part
We all start dying from the start.
Dyings the easy way that's true
But I think I'll stay a while
And try to pull through
Mike Donovan
I never thought death would be my friend
Only thought about it now & then
People die & we feel bad
then return to our lives
Where we can feel glad
But when you loose a child
it hollows you out
feeling like your insides
have been ripped out
Empty & alone wishing for death
All hope is gone
Awaiting my last breath
Mike Donovan
I never thought death would be my friend
Only thought about it now & then
People die & we feel bad
then return to our lives
Where we can feel glad
But when you loose a child
it hollows you out
feeling like your insides
have been ripped out
Empty & alone wishing for death
All hope is gone
Awaiting my last breath
Mike Donovan
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